DAY.ONE-HUNDRED> Ready or not, here we are. (The END.)

Here we are. Day one hundred. Jobless and "searching for God knows what" for one hundred days. This post is kind of long and a bit scattered, but stay with me. It's amazing, you know.. the search. I went out to find out what more this world has to offer than 60 hour work weeks and an education that put me to sleep and friends that never let me down but who I seemed to let down constantly. I went out to really just live life and love it. And let me tell you, I did. What did it cost me? Well, the rest of the money that I had saved up.. but money comes and goes, it really does. I'm okay with having no money. It's humbling in an odd kind of way, I began to appreciate it - the fact that I'm still surviving. Day by day by day and not even close to going hungry.

It seems that we are all on some kind of a search - I mean we have to be, right? We're always fighting, frustrated, and lost. I met a lot of people on that same search. Turns out, they weren't too far from me to begin with. Unhappy people searching for happiness. Tired people searching for rest. Confused people searching for direction, man, the list goes on. But as hard as it is to believe, I found it.. The thing is, what I found was incomparable to anything I could have imagined. It is not something that I went out and found. It's more like it found me. Hang tight for a second.

The beauty in what I found was that no matter what i did, no matter how far I went how much I continued to travel, to drive, to spend. No matter how many friends I had, books I read, no matter how many deep conversations I engaged in and coffee shops I explored, nothing could have convinced me about what I was about to find. And you're probably not going to like it. Or think it's too simple..But I don't care.. this is too important.. it's too TRUE and too ESSENTIAL to give up or forgo mentioning. And here it is. All along..

I found peace. It's incredible. Trust me this is not the same peace that I thought I knew either. But here's how I got it - every single moment of every day. Every step I took, every breath, every mile I drove, every conversation I had, every relationship that changed, everyone I saw, all the hurt I felt, all the hurt I imposed.. I just prayed. I let this be my life. And my direction. And now, I struggle to press on, but I know.. that THIS .. IS.. IT. Try it. Not for things that you need but for thing's that other people need, and for things you hope for, things that you take for granted EVERY DAY. That's what I gained, and what I learned?

It's about other people. SO much more than it's about ourself. No way to make you understand this. But if we stop living for ourselves and live for others (in doing so, serving God), we are LIGHT! Try turning life around and serving others for a change instead of your own selfish lives (myself included)!!

And that's it. It was so simple. I thank you for embarking on this journey with me from start to finish. I pray that you have learned things with me and put new things in practice as well. Let's Love Life and People. If we don't, who will!?

Pray&Love&Live.

PEACE, Nel.