DAY.THIRTEEN> God.

Boston harbor is a nice place. People are really friendly, maybe cause they are mainly tourists. Boston itself is pretty laid back though. I learned it is home to over 70 different colleges/universities and because of this - the night life rocks - everywhere I looked, college guys and gals. It makes for a competitive yet friendly and relatable environment I feel. Soon as I left Boston I headed over to Sturbridge, MA. This is a place that really took me for a spin. Lying here I am still a bit overwhelmed by the effect this place had on me. It is as if I spent a year in solitude at the base of the water as I sat on the rocks and took it all in. There was much to take in. While I tried to capture my thoughts and feelings in the amount and the quality of the pictures that I took, it was still inadequate. No words could really describe the natural life that was sprouting out of the ground into grass, trees, and forming a gigantic lake. It was perfect. Perfect. That's when I started thinking..

Something has been bothering me. It is deep rooted in my heart, whatever it is. All I can think of is "what are we missing?" We had to be missing something. Christian life seemed too easily lived by the majority and life outside that seemed too simple and pointless. How could I have missed something that was so clearly right in front of me? It's black and white - life, that is. God is a God of perfection. He doesn't leave room for mess-ups or questionable areas. There is no way but His way.

But see, if that is true - then we are lost out of our minds!! We have convinced ourselves that the bare essentials of "living out" a Christian life are enough but there is NO WAY that is true. We are not living it out we are barely even living! God demands much from us and honestly, we just fall short. He requires that sort of perfection because that is how He originally created us - perfect, in His image. So I GOTTA ask - what are we living for?? Why does $ seem not right to have? Why does giving some of our time not seem like enough?

Is it really possible to live this life out of ourselves? It is a literal translation of Luke 9:23 "[DENY yourself, take up your cross DAILY and follow ME!]"

I gotta ask - can't we see? His heart is ACHING for more of ours.