DAY.TWENTY-SEVEN> Cleetus must die

I got lost for the past 6 days. That is why there are no posts. I found myself today. I know, I'm happy too. We can learn so much about ourselves just by listening to other people. As I sit down and talk to old friends there seems to be a new attitude that has changed the way I listen. I think sometimes the best of friends need not say a word but listen intently. I have been listening to the pain in voices with my heart and it breaks. I have been fascinated by the life my peers and closest friends live. Most are content and are happy. There are a few that I listen to however, more acquaintances than friends, that have a disillusioned life that tells them they are doing just fine when it is so clearly the opposite. What are we listening with? Let's listen with our hearts not with our heads. It makes a difference.

I have spent more $ on my car than it is worth - probably twice the value at which I had originally bought it. It broke down again a few days ago. I am currently experiencing life without a car and with little money. I was stressed for a few hours. And I didn't like it even a little bit so I took a trip to Starbucks (I was driven), which is my favorite place in the world. It's really not Starbucks itself. I believe it to be the cafe-type environment that I tend to fall in love with. Something about the fact that I can read books while enjoying a hot latte in the midst of at least 10-20 people doing the same thing but in all different types of situations really makes me think about a lot. And it sure does give me peace.

I thought about it for a while and it went back to living a day at a time. Going back to the very basics! the root of it all! Learning to trust and have faith like I have never had before! When I thought about it that way I got excited. It's confusing but it is all going to workout. We have times like this to prepare us for the next big thing. We have times like this because we are being strengthened and tested. I want to come out tried and true. It's scary. It's stressful at times. It really makes you questions decisions you have made. But no regrets. I choose to live my life that way. It's simple and lends itself to an eternal peace, joy, and satisfaction. Going back to a previous post - this is a storm. I'm going to dance through it...

PS. Cleetus is my car.